She Says – A Poem

She says to go ahead and live my life
To not obsess over what may be
But does she know how it feels
To look up and see the sword of Damocles
Poised ever ready over my head
Mocking my every attempt to smile
To try and build the life I desire
Does she not see that if I work
Strive and push to fulfill
My every dream and desire
How tragic and debased I will be
When the worst comes crashing in
And steals my hope and dreams from me
Doesn’t she know my whole life has been
A prison sentence with the shiny dream
Of a future yet to be?
My only reason for breathing and being?
Doesn’t she see how this takes
Even that from me?
Just live your life and be good
But I have always been good
And this is where it has gotten me